(Thumb Art: Andrew Salgado, Youth in Revolt, 2015)

What is your darkest thought? It’s an unpleseant image, no? You are afraid of thinking. Stop. This is not a blog. This is a conversation. It isn’t one sided. Now listen. Sequestered in the far-flung corners of the internet, I don’t expect nor hope for even the most lost soul to stumble across this  In any case I had to channel out my fervor of “what the fuck are these” thoughts as a consequence of which, is this.

My mind floods with the most bizarre thoughts. Hard to control; I set them free. Note that our mind is a house with an old lady inside it who only entertains only white guests. The old lady in my house is a pot smoking hippie who offers hash brownies to all people passing and is frequently visited by aliens, drug lords, businessmen, strippers, mathematicians and everyone else. Thoughts are guests, always! outsiders who seize your stimuli and slowly convolve some scattered bits of “dafuq?”, en route to your mind, and finally they are at your doorstep…

* Knock Knock *

“Who dat?”

“Cannibalism”, says a casual voice

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The old lady in your house might call the cops and never let the thought enter. In my case my old lady has already exchanged some recipes with Mr.Cannibalism. If, still foggy, this will be the clearest expression of what you will find here:

“You will read my experiences as I entertain fucked up, tabooed, interesting, complex thoughts”

-D- Did you notice? The aforementioned sentence  doesn’t please the ears as much as the sentence “…as a consequence of which, is this”, which falls in the first para. Some sentences are nobles and others are mere peasant; one superior than the other. I often find such sentences. Also, I use symbols like “-D-” to denote that my thought train derailed at that point.

Since we are on the topic, why do we brush away the thought of Cannibalism? Of course its condemned by the society but, why? Let’s ask what about cannibalism we don’t like. Does killing another human seem terrible? People do it all the time; in fact history is replete with examples of terrible people who killed innocents for some cheap thrills so that is definitely not the problem. Every person probably has given “killing someone” a thought already. Fine. Mr. Cannibal plans to dissect the dead body, vacuum wrap it in plastic foil   and store it in a chest freezer. The gory thought of dissecting a body will most leave most people desperate for strong eye bleach. It’s tempting to jump to the conclusion that, gore is the reason why we do not like cannibalism but, what about morgue operators or surgeons? They are not cannibals are they?

The real problem is with human brain hard wiring. Sex, is our futile effort to preserve our genetic code, our life form. The desperate need to survive or the natural choice of life wasn’t a choice at all but was one of the many random combinations that survived. The first life form that appeared on earth might or might not have divided itself. Only cells that divided themselves continued to exist. Easily one can be deluded and think of life as a precious resource, to be preserved. It isn’t special. Our hard wiring has programmed us to preserve the genetic code our specie. Hence, Sex and not cannibalism. To be continued